I normally don't spend a lot of time looking back. Or at least I try not to. But on a day like today, I can't help but reflect on 2001 and try to remember what I was thinking and feeling when our world was forever changed.
I had just started working at Capitol Abstract & Title Company as a receptionist. My hair was pink and I was tall. Still am. I wore chunky heeled black boots and self tanner was non-existent. I paint you a pretty picture. Anyway, I had previously been working in property management. Because I was bored and restless and tired of being responsible, I decided to leave that industry and figure out what I really wanted to do with my life. Being a receptionist sounded easy with low expectations...and that's what I was after at the time. My alarm radio sounded on September 11, 2001, and I caught the tail end of a report about a plane crashing into a building. In my 80 cent draw induced fog, it didn't register. On my way to work I listened to the news and heard the whole story. I remember not getting it. A terrorist attack? How? Why? It wouldn't compute in my brain. I guess you could say, I was uninformed at this time in my life. More concerned with my social life and fun than the state of the world. I didn't understand the method of terror. Why a plane...a hijacking. If I really focus, I can still remember what that 24 year old was thinking. Even though I had been old enough to understand the OKC bombing, this was something different. Something that went beyond 2 or 3 people. I think that is why it took me so long to fully grasp the magnitude of this attack. As I became more aware, I could feel my brain shifting. There was a world out there I knew nothing about. For the first time as an adult, I started to see past American borders. This was a defining moment in my life. I don't think I knew it at the time. But looking back, this is when the last of my innocence and naivete was stripped away. I could no longer see the world as I once did. From time to time, and especially today, I think about the families and friends who were directly affected by this act of evil and I am filled with compassion. And I am so thankful for my own family and friends. Why does it take such a tragedy for me to fully appreciate what I have and where I was born? What a blessed life I lead.